Why do I feel disconnected?
So on Youtube I watch this talented and passionate young man, myshowtvdiva. His videos are alway very inspirational, funny, and at times pretty deep. He is a beautiful tan colored man from Palestine who speaks his mind. I have been watching his videos for some months now and love them. The whole time I’ve been watching his videos though I’ve thought he was gay. I don’t recall him ever saying he was gay, he does talk a lot about love, acceptance and things of this nature. In todays video [ http://bit.ly/267vsq ] he was giving his usual drop of motivational T on that ass and while doing this he mentions he’s not gay and that he is not going to explain himself…. I had to watch this part like 3 times because I was semi shocked. I mean I did not watch his videos because I thought he was gay it’s just I felt this connection. When He said he was not gay I must admit I did feel a little let down. Like that connection I had to him had been severed. Why do I feel as if I am no longer as close to him now then I was right before he said he was not gay. Why does my connection to him somehow feel less. Why do I feel like I didn’t pay my Comcast Cable bill and now am disconnected from his Youtube channel. Granted he did not state he was straight either but I dunno. I still think maybe I did not hear the video right or maybe I was not paying attention all four times I went over the clip. I don’t care what sexuality he is. I will still watch his videos. I think it was just the inital shock of hearing him say he was not gay that upset my spirit. Just wanted to drop this T on the table and get it off my chest. Thanks for reading. @theamericanxp - don’t be a fair weather fan…
